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Saturday, June 10, 2006

i carn slp and i just couldnt fall asleep... so i decided to come and blog an entry... i guess i just haven come to terms with my uncle's death... went to my uncle's funeral just now... seeing his pic and coffin made me want to cry... i try to control but still tears drop out... then i just bit on my lip and force myself to stop crying... my mum n bro cried too... this is the first time after common tests that i dun feel happy at all i feel so very sad and depressed... i guess its both my uncle's death and my gut feelings about my results that made me feel so... my heart really goes out to my 4 yr old cousin... my bro was telling me that she still didnt know anything abt it - after all she is still so young... my bro was telling me that on thurs she was still saying that her father is sleeping on the bed... oh my... arent ur heart 'soured' just by hearing that? guess im just gonna try n control myself n not cry these 2 days but i know i will surely burst out on monday... i guess i better go n lie down and see if i can fall asleep not... i still haf a long day later... :'(

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