Thursday, April 17, 2008
I. SINK. INTO. DEPRESSION. AGAIN.
this time, its 3 times worse than on the 27-2-08. yesterday i already told myself that no matter what i see, i will not be affected by it and that i must learn from my mistakes. but still, say only, cant helped being so disappointed and sad. i tell myself that its because i havent finish revising all the topics before going for the papers so that im not that well prepared. but come to think of it, these are just plain excuses that im giving myself or rather trying to make myself feel better. im the most disappointed with the pmkg paper. the poa paper, i've got not enough time to do the cash flow statement so i thought i write down the format of the whole statement see can get 1/2 or 1 mark for format but when i flip to that page its a big fat zero. im so sad. i've got a lot of things that i want to say but i dont know how to put it into words. im starting to think if im putting the best effort i can now, while preparing for the finals. i guess not. well, even though i lost alot of time already and exams are in 3weeks' time, im sure that if i buck up even more now, i still can catch up.
i must tell myself i can. i must tell myself i can. i must tell myself i can.
i must tell myself to let go of the past and concentrate on the future. i must tell myself to let go of the past and concentrate on the future. i must tell myself to let go of the past and concentrate on the future.
its not working.
the more i think, the more i want to cry.
eiLeen signed off @
4:23 PM
