Saturday, March 31, 2007
bro is finally home after the initial 2 weeks in the army. he is in Pes A, Bronco Coy. he says his section owes the officer alot of push-ups liao and that after this weekend, it will be tougher in tekong, since the first 2 weeks are for them to adjust to the life over there. hes changed, physically. became bigger built liao. lol sure la, everyday do exercises over there. think his activities over the weekend very full. haha.
sim family's army boy. haha.
bro is home, father is discharged, ah gong is better though not dischargeable yet.
:) :) :)
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12:07 AM
Friday, March 30, 2007
i carn fall asleep, or rather maybe i dun wan to fall asleep also. cus i know i carn wake up at 7.30am and no point sleeping now also, make me even sleepier later on only. but i got nothing to do eh, scv got no nice shows to watch now, dun feel like reading books, dun feel like rewatching vcds. maybe i shall go play some yahoo games. haiz.
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5:18 AM
Thursday, March 29, 2007
lemme start this blog entry with a big HAIZ... no another 3 big HAIZ HAIZ HAIZ...
i spent the night at the hospital yesterday. it was not originally meant to be so. when i went to the hospital yest noon, ah gong is having a fever. i guess its from the blood transfusion so nurses gave him ice packs. so ard 8 plus we left for home again as usual. then ard 9 plus my auntie called us. she had just finished visiting ah gong and she said that the patient opposite ah gong told her that my maid slapped ah gong. fu*k her! ah gong is sick and having fever and she slapped him! and because we have 2 maids, and ah gong needs to be taken care of 24hrs so the 2 maids go on shifts to take turns to look after ah gong. maid A goes in the day. maid B, the one who slapped ah gong, does the night shift. so cannot be the teenage guy opposite ah gong will lie to us right we duno each other and theres no reason for him to lie, his friends saw it too. and also, maid B has done a lot of things in the past which gives the whole family a lot of headache but we gave her chances, seeing that at least she does her work. but this is realy unacceptable.
walau i reali dunno how she can ren xin slap an elderly person who is having a fever and an injured arm. FUCK! so reali quite bu fang xin leave her alone with ah gong there alone. then my father already spent the night in the hospital on tuesday night cus of the blood transfusion and he realli very worn out since ah gong gt hospitalised so i volunteered to go. so father fetch me to the hospital ard 10 plus. and just at that point that i want to use my ipod to accompany me thru the night, the ipod spoil again. and b4 that i found out that my computer is spoilt too. everything spoil. what a bad streak of luck huh. then thot of bringing book but lights out too dark so carn read. then luckily hp gt radio function.
so the night begins. and those who know me well knows i hate the HEAT and ah gong is just nice the opposite. ah gong can sleep without the fan and still cover himself with the blanket. so we always never on the fan at his bed. thats the reason y we nv move him up to the aircon room. luckily the next 2 beds to ah gong is empty and the fans are still on. so still not that bad. the night is real long without anything to do. so i just sit there and listen to 933. then sometimes stand up and walk ard the end corner space. haha then every 5 minutes i will look at the clock, no sometimes 1 minute. then i tried lying by the bedpost but too hot and uncomfortable so i didnt sleep the whole night. then when im lying on the bedpost ah i thot 10 minutes past liao but nt even 2 minutes past leh =.=' at 2am when im realli tired, i look at the bed next to ah gong and wondered if i can just climb in there and sleep. smemre the person just came to change the bedsheets. lol. of cus i nv la, think of it oli. then ah gong wake up a few times to pass urine and i feed him lots and lots of water, make sure that the fever doesnt come back. then his wound itch so i soothe it for him. basically he slept almost thru out the night. and he oso ask me sleep. and he suddenly said to me, kuai soon (good granddaughter). want to cry sia hear that. i reali wondered if im a good granddaughter and if i had done enuf for him already. but now i know i am trying my very best to do what i can for him and i will continue. so ard 7.30am father came with maid A to take over while maid B and i went home to sleep.
actually while waiting for my hair to dry b4 i sleep this morning, i wanted to blog but this stupid computer got so many problems. oli until now then ok.
haiz. then ard 3pm just now my mum called me to say father is in hospital. not see ah gong. is he admitted into hospital. father all along had high blood and since ah gong is hospitalised, he is quite busy gg to work looking after ah gong and so on. then just now he suddenly felt his chest pain and his hand numb so he went to the hospital. had to stay overnight for observation. then mum is staying with him there tonight. so anyway with regards to maid B, we already indirectly scold her liao cus we realli need her help now and hiring a new maid now is nt reali an option cus 1) needs to process paper work - needs time, 2) the new maid doesnt know ah gong's habits. cus actually we planned to send her back to the agent this afternoon. but now since we still need some help, we changed her to the morning shift, lots of ppl there and lessen the chance of her daring to do anything and i will be there with her at the hospital. we wun leave her alone with ah gong again.
3 plus i just went to fetch maid A back to sleep and bring maid B there. so ard 10 plus i will bring maid A there and maid B back.
i think father is really too stressed and tired out. we know he has high blood and always tell him to take it easy, but its his character. hope his checkup shows that everything is ok. i am trying my best and i hope that i am doing everything i can to lighten the workload off my parents. theres something that is too long and difficult to type here but just want to say that hope they know what they are doing and whether their conscience prick them not.
the things i can help to do is like so limited, but its ok, i will try my best, and help out whatever that i can. now the most impt thing is that everyone else is healthy.
(i just received a phone call and it is a little better)
i just made a few calls to mum and so far father is alright, pressure has already dropped and tml lunch time can discharge liao if his heart is ok :)
p/s: i NOW then realli know who my TRUE friends are, to be by my side when i realli needed some comfort, hearing ears etc. it is realli in times of need that u see true friends (dix and van). thanks for all the encouragement. i realli appreciate it.
MING TIAN YI DING HUI GEN HAO!!!
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to: this particular person
im starting to feel some hatred for u.
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4:58 PM
Tuesday, March 27, 2007
great. now my laptop is also starting to have problems. it just wudnt start and the blue screen keeps appearing. luckily i still have my desktop. today my tummy is trying to torture me. my insides are like being pinched and pulled downwards. damn painful and im starting to get bodyache which means im going to get a fever soon. i also have a new ulcer and its my that time of the month. hw 'great' can things get yeah.
&$#%!%$&
since grandpa got hospitalised, my everyday routine is to wake up, go hospital and until evening time my parents come and then ard 8 plus we will leave for dinner together, then go home shower and sleep. the doc says my grandpa still needs to stay for a wk or so. he has dementia so he didnt know the seriousness of his injury and he keeps fidgeting so the wound healed very slowly. we asked him if he felt pain he said no. he didnt even know he is in a hospital. so everyday my maid and i have to see that he doesnt scratch or exert force onto his arm but sometimes he jus doesnt want to listen to us. getting him to eat is difficult too. last time he will ask for many meals but now he justs eat 3 mouthfuls and he doesnt want it anymore we had to coax him. and also just now the doctor came and said that he didnt have enuf blood so i have to sign a consent form to let them carry on with the blood transfusion. and we have to monitor his breathing and so on while transfusing the blood. i really pray that ah gong listens to us and stop moving his injured arm and come home earlier.
the other maid is just creating another whole lot of problems for us. hiaz. she xian the whole family not enuf problems.
bro is coming home this fri and luckily he is alright at tekong so far.
think i wudnt be gg down to the hospital tml already. later i spread my illness to ah gong.
i wish i cud help out more and take away some of my parents 'troubles' :(
think the most impt thing is to let ah gong get discharged first.
so van sorry ah after ah gong discharge liao we go out ok?
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10:20 PM
lots of things are happening at home, or rather oso to me. haiz. pray that everyone at home remains healthy and that all those things to go away soon.
*pray*
*pray*
*pray*
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to: this particular person
fine. i've finally seen ur true colours.
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1:28 AM
Thursday, March 22, 2007
and so we sent bro off to Pulau Tekong last fri. upon reaching the island, the family members were brought round the premises while bro had to report to another place. after that we went to the auditorium where we see a video then the going-to-be NS guys took the 'NS pledge'. then we went to the cookhouse together to have lunch wif bro. their food portion is so huge la, consists of rice, fries, chicken, corn, soup and an apple. then bro walk us to the ferry terminal and then thats when we said goodbyes.
today he smsed mom and said he had rashes. seen a doctor already. think its the soap powder. so fast he can cum home nxt week liao. :) there are lots of mosquitos inside and they had to use the mosquito net.
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last sat cheryl's and my parents were out of town. so i went over for a slp over. for dinner we went to Margarita's. it was my first time there while second for cheryl. we originally wanted to eat at Mario's pizza but they didnt have spaghetti on that day so we changed. so it was located at her hse there, at faber terrace. it was a tiny restaurant but so crowded. cheryl told me it was very well-known restaurant. we had a lot of food on that day lol. it was a Mexican restaurant and the moment i flip the menu open, i went woa! ~ cus i dun understand and dun realli know how to read. haha. got english la but first time eat mexican food so we decided to ask the owner (a very friendly person) to recommend some dishes. he recommended an appetizer and a main course. i forgot to take the photo of the appetizer but this is how the main course looks:
its fried fish coated with cornflakes with avocado sauce. i love this! esp the sauce! i didnt quite like the appetizer though.
so after we finished the 2 dishes we didnt felt full so we ordered more:
vegetable soup! very yummy! i love soups of any kind. i wun survive w/o soups lol.
fried breaded mushroom. i tink its shitake mushroom inside. we ate halfway until we remembered that we wanted to take photos so we put the half of 2 mushrooms back onto the plate and took this. not bad but too much of the mushrooms make me gag a little.
this is my favourite of all! crabmeat with nachos. the crabmeat is so fresh and its out of its shell already, dun haf to peel ourselves. haha. very nice this dish! may look disgusting here though, cus of the lighting.
after this mean, we were damn full, so we decided to take a walk. and we walked and walked to the playground and decided to swing on the swings. its realli fun to swing on the swing once again. damn fun la and we joke luff until we got no strength to hold on to the metal sides. it was fun playing at the playground. next we went to the exercise corner and we stepped and walked one round those stones of different sizes. damn painful la which = we are both very unhealthy. wahah. fun night! and oh ya the meal realli burn the whole of our wallets out. and we even had this 'shit' joke about the meal. and playing ard the playground took a lot of our energies sia. we felt so tired after we bathe that we went to bed soon after. maybe we are old already.
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ah gong is recovering well, thank god, but his arm is still swollen. he shld be able to come home soon. but the patient next to my ah gong very poor thing. no family members came to see him and he had to be tied to the bed cus he tried to sneak out of the hospital. and whenever he is thirsty either my maid or me feed him water cus he got no free hands. and he asked us to help him call his family members eh. reali very poor thing.
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im very tired. going to bed soon. had an ulcer, damn pain. must drink more barley water already. im finally done with that final thing! yeah! but still have to follow up...
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to: this particular person
!#*&$!%&%$!%^$&^*
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11:05 PM
Monday, March 19, 2007
the original plan was for me to bring ah gong's lunch to the hospital at 12pm. but dad suddenly called me at 10.49am to tell me that the consultant said that ah gong needed an operation immediately. so dad came home and fetch me to the hospital. but when we got to the ward ard 11.30am, ah gong had already been pushed to the operating theatre. so we went to level 3 to look for my maid. so we waited at the level 3 visitors lounge.
ard 12 plus we took turns to have lunch, my maid and i went to 7-11 to buy some finger food (which caused me to have stomach upset) as we were not that hungry. then there was this tv which we can on (but will auto turn off in 1 hr cus they say they wana save electricity) so we decided to on it while waiting. the first screen that came on was HBO - both of us went woa! got HBO! but alas ~ after 3 secs it switched to another channel and can u imagine that we had to bear with this channel switching for an hr? then another 2 hrs later we tried again - the same thing happened. until 5.30pm then the whole tv was working properly.
then my maid was filling me with all the details that happened in the morning while we were waiting. i got pretty pissed off with this:
(doc was making his rounds in the morning b4 operation)
ah gong: hello! jia ba bo? (have you eaten?)
doctor: *replies in mandarin*
my maid (to the doctor): can you speak hokkien or malay to ah gong? cus he dun understand mandarin.
doctor (to my maid): what language he speaks is his problem.
me (after listening to my maid): !#%#^$^$%&%^*
hey mr doctor, i mean my ah gong was being friendly and all and need u reply and be so rude?! kns! he was already in so much pain and u had to be like that? i mean of cus ah gong dun understand wad he said but i felt VERY pissed offffffff. hmmp!
and so my father, maid and me waited for ah gong the whole afternoon until ard 5plus where my mum and aunties joined us after work. i was really worried for the operation is taking a very long time and alot of patients who went in after ah gong came out first. i tell u its no fun sitting at the visitors lounge. ur heart twists and turns. it was until 7.30pm that ah gong came out. so we waited for around 8hrs for ah gong b4 he came out. everytime the door opens we will look if its him. its a relieve to see ah gong being pushed out finally but seeing the tubes and the blood and everything on ah gong made me want to cry (which i realli did in the ward later). see already also feel painful. if can i reali wished that i was the one who fell at least i got meat then youngsters fall easier to recover. then in addition ah gong have dementia which adds on to the already worse fractured arm erm - i realli duno how to start off with. yi yan nan jing.
anyway hes back at the ward now and i pray hard that he recovers fast. no infection *touch wood* he needs at least 6 weeks to fully recover. and his bp abit unstable.
im sure he will be able to recover fast.
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bro is still trying to adapt to the army life. wish him all the best!
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next blog entry will be on cheryl and my trip to Margaritas as well as my 4hrs spent in Tekong.
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take real good care everyone!
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11:13 PM
ah gong had to be hospitalised.
:(
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12:26 AM
Sunday, March 18, 2007
my mum jus called me.
she says ah gong is fine, no need for hospitalisation, just put on a cast will do.
im so relieved,
and
HAppY!
:)
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5:20 PM
my grandfather just had a fall.
we called the ambulance.
im really very worried now.
:'(
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4:32 PM
Friday, March 16, 2007
im sad =(
everything's gonna change in 4hrs time.
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2:54 AM
Wednesday, March 14, 2007
im so damn bloody happy omg!!!!! i've graduated!!!!! i got GPA 3.1 for this sem!!!!! i didnt expect myself to do so well :) i mean of cus other ppl's results alot better than mine but for my own standards im so damn bloody happy!!!!! omg i tink i carn fall aslp liao wahaha... i can collect my diploma liao!!! i thot my IB will did the worst among all but alas its PM. but its ok im damn happy omg... lalalala~~~ im MAD!!!
:) :) :) :) :)
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6:04 AM
theres a cockroach in my bathroom. shucks. how to catch? omg i dare not. ah, can ask my bro help me catch, if not i haf to use his bathroom for the rest of the night =.='
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results are gona be out in 5h30mins time (shudders at the thought of it).
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12:20 AM
Monday, March 12, 2007
i love watching The Academy, reminds me of my red cross cadet days =) wish i cud go back to those days. but i dun like half of the ending, it made my eyes swollen. after all, who doesnt like happy endings?
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i jus like my own personal space, is there anything wrong with it? y carn they just put themselves in my shoes? mayb part of it is that i didnt do enuf on my own part but i am already trying my very best. with all these gg on, it just made me feel like stopping whatever im trying hard to do and that all my hard work seems to be in vain.
i tink abt it very often and im very affected by it. mayb i should see a psychiatrist, a shrink - or whoever who can cure me. i really duno wad i shld do.
maybe i should just STOP and LEAVE IT THERE.
maybe nobody even cares.
:( :( :( :( :(
pg 416/658 and counting down.
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1:34 AM
Saturday, March 10, 2007
stayed up till so late just to finish watching hana kimi. the ending, hmm, lets just say its not wad i want it to be la. actually long ago da gai know the ending liao cus ella partially said it out in yu le bai fen bai.
my laptop is gonna breakdown soon. battery life only lasts for 30mins =.=' and i had to tap extra hard on the full stop key. used for 3 yrs liao maybe shld retire already.
i took my medication which is supposed to make me feel drowsy but i am still awake now. mayb there is really something wrong with me. and i still dont feel tired now.
i want to go read my novel liao. see how fast i can take to finish this 658 pages book by lesley pearse.
i saranghae storybooks!
im really MAD ~.~
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6:13 AM
Thursday, March 08, 2007
i dont want to go out already. the mild problem earlier had turned into a big and disastrous problem. if only i went to see the doctor earlier.
AAARRRGGGHHH!!! iiimmm dddaaammmnnn vvveeerrryyy sssaaaddd,,, fffrrruuussstttrrraaattteeeddd aaannnddd pppiiisssssseeeddd ooofff!!!
to top off that, i am still as devastated as ever since... ever since... ever since...
or am i just thinking too much??? :(
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p/s: is it ok to lie for the sake of not wanting the other party to worry? is this considered as a white lie?
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4:17 PM
Tuesday, March 06, 2007
im feeling so terrible. so terrible that it hurts. who can i actually pour these out to? maybe there isnt even anyone who is willing to lend me a listening ear.
i guess its just my monthly pms mood swings again. i certainly hope it is.
:'( :'( :'( :'( :'(
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9:21 PM
Sunday, March 04, 2007
i slept very early today, or rather, yesterday. i had no idea why i am so tired. by 10pm im already snuggling against my doggie bone (not the real bone la - its some sort of a huggy cushion) and by 10.03pm my eyes are closed. hw did i know the timing so accurately? cus my bro came in and ask me to off my tv and lights b4 i sleep (which is my bad habit - i always like dozing off with the tv running). which so i did and i checked my phone b4 i 'plonk' onto the bed. ok, back to the main topic - i slept VeRy early today - which is highly unusual if you did read my previous posts. so what did this early sleeping result in?
*Drumrolls*
me being transported into the hOrrOr dreamland.
and so i found myself in an HDB flat. dun really remember the sequence though. the less scary scene is that i was doing some washing up at the sink and being supervised and taught how to actually wash pAiLs. and i washed the pails in a very very very very (so many veryS to show how exactly dim it is) dim environment. then next i appear in the bedroom and theres my auntie, getting ready for bed. my cousin cheryl is already sleeping on the matteress. and my aunt ask me hurry up and get ready for bed. then the whole room plunge into darkness. i actually cant slp in the dream itself u know, i kept shivering and kept keeping a lookout for - you guess what? -
a vampire.
so i actually knew that theres a vampire in that house and i actually still stay in it?! then after smetime my aunt went to the toilet and i sort of remember begging her not to go. but she went anyway. i was scared stiff i tell u - i really am in the dream. so i bo bian lie back onto the matteress. but i nv slept. then I HEARD FOOTSTEPS AND THUDS COMING FROM OUTSIDE. i then knew something is not right. i knew the vampire is coming so i immediately jump out of my matteress and shake my cousin up and in the midst of shaking her, THE VAMPIRE POP INTO THE ROOM. i held on to my breath (funny ah even in dreams - ok shld be nightmares i also know hafto hold my breath) and stopped moving. the vampire scanned the room b4 jumping/hopping out. then i started shaking my cousin again while the vampire is peering against the toilet light under the door. to my horror, the vampire suddenly pOp back into the room. this was when i decided that enough is enough and i decided to force myself awake (so i do actually know that that is a nightmare in a nightmare itself???). and so i did and found myself staring at the walls of my own room. and i actually didnt dare to look around at first. im not exaggerating. my heart is thumping but no sweat beads at my forehead - my room is damn cold. i switched on my light immediately.
it is scary omg. i am shivering throughout as i type this entry and im still reeling from the shock.
do you know whats the double shock?
i had a almost similar vampire dream b4! and its like the same vampire! omg.
i really cant describe the 'scaredness' that im having now. its indescribable. wanted to run down and pray but i dare not.
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since im at this topic, lemme continue with it. last time when i was still staying at the HDB flat, i was trying to fall asleep in my room. the whole hse was dark - only my mums room is alighted cus she was staying up waiting for my father. all of a sudden i heard footsteps. shuffling of footsteps outside my room. (i slept with the aircon on so my rm door is closed). my heart froze on the spot u know. im not kidding. then the footsteps shuffle a few more times and with each time, the footsteps seems to be coming nearer to my room. (i tink i really read too many books on the supernatural and even watching shows on them) then i still can remember i on the spot thought of those stories that i've read - the soldiers in tekong always hear ppl's shuffling of footsteps in the middle of the night and so on. and my imagination really ran wild - i imagined a japanese soldier outside. i flipped the blanket further up and covered my whole self with it. but the shuffling still continued. then i thought of taking the gamble and running to my mum's room. my mum's room is directly opposite mine only. i dashed out not run. and b4 i 'chiong' into my mum's rm ah i actually stared at the living room for 10 secs. im mad arent i? so i went in and told my mum everything. she said i tink too much. nevertheless i spent the night sleeping with my mum. my dad had to sleep in my room. the next day, they brought me to a temple to pray.
if i were to compare,
scary-o-factor:
Present nightmare - 80/100
HDB experience - 100/100
of cus la the HDB one is i haven even fall asleep de eh, real experience.
i still got one more experience - that one is at the Sembawang Park or something where i was having red cross training camp. but this entry long enuff liao think other day then share with u all.
ok i felt better after i typed it all out. guess i better stop all my bookreading, watching of shows of that particular topic for a while. guess i better go search for a comedy to watch now, to bring my mind off that nightmare.
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today is the last day of CNY so gamble for the very last day and enjoy urselves! :)
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2:43 AM
Saturday, March 03, 2007
im...
pretty irritated by something...
last time it used to be a mild one...
but now its really pissing me off...
-and-
i just found out that my ipod doesnt work when i attempted to charge it...
GREAT.
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1:35 AM
Friday, March 02, 2007
im still wide awake - nOw. i am turning into an owl. no idea why but it must be the mugging of exams that made me gradually turn into one. i always sleep at earliest 4am even when i am having a morning paper the next day - no kidding. the result is that i will doze off in the car on the way to school. speaking of which, i get scared all of a sudden cus smething in my brain had triggered off, making me think about my results. i wonder how i will fare. seriously im not confident at all. haiz. 12 days more days of uncertainties is what i had to endure.
i am addicted to the addition of songs into my blog. i wanted to add HOT's candy, Koyote's Together, Kim Jong Kook's Hanamja and so many more. heh heh heh they are all korean songs. but now i will just stick to A Song For A Lady - a song that im once very mad abt and still am. then the iwebmusic ah i tried uploading some of the songs that i want but after umpteenth times, still unsuccessful. can somebody help me with this???
my bro is enlisting into the army soon. so that leaves me all alone on the 3rd floor. i tink we are really not gonna get use to it without him. he is the happy fruit (kai xin guo) in our family. nvm! 2 yrs will be over pretty fast yeah? he is pretty worried about his pull-up, so much so that he hanged a pole out at my balcony, for him to practice b4 he goes in. but so far like nv see him using it. haha. nevertheless, i wana wish him all the best and dun kena tekan so many times! :)
it is our family's tradition to give the person enlisting into the army a treat. so plenty of treats for him! oh ya and he is suppose to go in on the eve of my mum's bdae :( and so we decided to bring forward the celebration.
life seems pretty boring w/o school. but with school its like projects, assignments and tests etc that are taking up 90% of my time. contradicting isnt it. and im still procrastinating on my registration for smu and sim. guess i better geddit done fast.
ok- back to watching Great Expectations! nite or rather morning everyone! :)
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