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Thursday, August 31, 2006

hmm... was suppose to leave in like 12 hours time and my lugguage is still half packed? was pretty lazy and kept procrastinating... all thanks to youtube and xman (a korean variety show)... i got very hooked on it - until my clothes are all torn into shreds (i know its not funny but laugh a bit la give me support ma :P) wahahha... nothing much to blog just wana gif my fingers some exercising... time flies huh (ya they have wings) gg to be yr 3 sem 2 liao if that is i pass all my exams which looks bleakful to me... :'( ok gotta resume packing liao if nt tml dunid to go liao... gg to start my driving lessons after i come back - hope i dun crash the car into trees or curbs *touchwood*... so shall cya guys on sun then... buaizzz!!! :)

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Tuesday, August 29, 2006

this particular post almost didnt made it here... was trying to charge my laptop when i found that the signal thats suppose to show that im 'charging' my lappy didnt light up... luckily after a few tries it resumed normal... freak the hell outta me thot my charger or lappy had gone haywire... then just 30 mins ago when im tryin to connect in again, even though my router shows connection and that i've check all settings and whether the plugs had came loose, i carn seem to connect in anyway at all... tried my computer but to no avail... didnt know wad went wrong... was panicking and suddenly thought of scanning my lappy (which doesnt have any help to it at all i tink) which i scan once every 10 years... had to call my bro for help and with his magical hands - i finally can log onto the internet... wad a relief... i tink i will ???diE??? w/o internet for a day... too used to it already i suppose... nothing much in particular these few days... had a not much of a fruitful holiday so far... been a couch potato only... been dragging through my diving lessons... want to box myself - when i haven pass my final theory i been wanting to want to learn to drive then now that i did pass i havent start learning yet... ~haizzz~ haven even pack my stuff yet... and thursday im going off... think had to wake up earlier tml... gotta go watch youtube again bye everyone enjoy ur holidays... thanks bro for your help... counting down 2 days and 17 days...
~am still totally very in love with my gigantic strawberry~

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Monday, August 28, 2006

here i am again... went out with my cuzzie yest... and added something to my 'collection?' of softtoys yet again...
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tada! a gigantic strawberry which i had been eyeing on for 3 months??? so cuddly and cute la but so ex la... was waiting for the price to drop - but it didnt... luckily i have the 15% membership discount... wahahah... im also a member of the body shop le!!! spent quite a lot yest... very broke now... need sme scotchtape to piece me back together (ok i know not funny)... saw my buddy ru at dover mrt... as well as some of my other clasmates at suntec too... desmond, joshua... haha... haha... haha... im very mad... got nothing much to do so i took out my secondary sch mag and read... i found 1 which had me on the cover page with shuting(of course not whole cover page us only la got other ppl)... it was yr 2002 orientation day and we were in our red cross uniform... wahahaha... and i oso found out again that my article was published in the mag!!! wahaha... im not making much sense here now i better get going... counting down happily 3 days and nervously 14 days...
*having another of my mood swings yet again haizzz... sooner or later gonna be swinged to somewhere else...

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Saturday, August 26, 2006

yawn~morning everyone... im seriously suffering from the repercussions from my exams... actually woke up at 6.58am today... which is 2 minutes earlier than what i usually woke up when i have a morning paper... im mad ~ to wake up at 6.58am on a HOLIDAY... also thanks ah shoot u actually gave me a shock from the sUrPriSe (sacartiscally wahahahha) call u gave me at 4 plus... my 2 or 3 week old cold haven recovered yet... actually it had changed for the better but after sitting in the freezingly cold (like in the north/south pole) exam hall i tink i caught the cold back... regretted ot bringing my jacket... and my nose is really in need of a plumber right now... sniff sniff...

ok so i got a dream yesterday or should i clasify it as a nightmare.... yes it is and shall be called a nightmare... remember in yest's post where i kept toking abt PLB? yes u may have guessed it correctly - i dreamt of !MRS PENNY THONG!(my tutor for plb) and somebody --------- (but that somebody is not impt at this moment)... (psst: not that i dream i fail my exam la *very touch wood*) the whole thing was like taking place at my house and strangely - ms van why are u inside too??? then we 2 were like doing project(yes i mentioned project yest too didnt i?) then duno why mrs thong came into the picture then we dunno why sort of quarrel then suddenly she say van got 1 demerit(participation?-yest i was like calculating my estimation marks for abt 100 times) point then she turn to me and say i perm my hair curly so i got 2? should be 2 demerit points... and in the dream im not having curly hair ok its my normal out of shape rebonded hair with some curls here and there... then i was like rebutting her saying i where got curly hair... wahahah wad stupid senseless dream... does it have a hidden meaning? i dunno eh my brain hasnt resume functioning properly... then the part about that sombody nothing much to say here and ya i oso wun say here wahahaha... in short are dreams the opposite of reality? issit i think of too much negative things yest thats why i have this dream? then i tink of gd things today la haha and see wad dream i have tonight... lol... now that im so FREE i have so much time to blog... ok i tink i better go eat 2 panadols first b4 i flood my room with mucus(eeeeeewwwww) - u can see how serious it is rite im practically clearing my nose every 1 minute = a very sore and frictioned nose at night... haah going to catch up on all tv that i've missed...

counting very happily down to 5 days and nervously to 20 days... have a nice day everyone! :)

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Friday, August 25, 2006

yeah ive changed my skin!!! not my real skin la... my blogskin... ok im just typing rubbish cus u all have eyes to see rite... lol... actually i wanted to use another skin but the html is like totally so complicated... im a computer idiot so ya its like i've taken around 1 and a half hours trying to figure out how to change and edit this skin's html... but the sense of satisfaction is there... :P
haizzz... im still thinking of my plb eh... got this really strange feelings eh... maybe im thinking too much - which i hope im really am... die la... really think i will fail the whole module... pray hard my project can pull me up... heard that teacher emailing us the marks... then i can roughly gauge hw much i score... :'(*crosses my fingers and praying very hard)

ghost game!!! see ya at golden village tml!!! :)

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10:30 PM

finally~ the exams are over... but im so utterly disappointed with my PLB paper today... studied so hard for it and in the end... haizzz... dunch want to mention abt it anymore lemme have a pass on it and i'll be damn happy... but i got a very huge hunch that i will FAIL... then i have to repeat my module haizz... and canot graduate... :'( 15 sept faster come... have ard 6 weeks of holidays... the whole sem seems to wheeze pass so quickly ah... am so tired now... duno wad to blog abt le... slept for only combined of 5hrs for the last 3 days... counting down 6 days yeah!!!

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Tuesday, August 22, 2006

i am feeling so stressed out, worn out and tired... who on earth is the bl**dy fella who invented exams... (i tink i became very vulgar in my language recently-bear with me, it will be over on the 25th Aug) been cramping investments, plb and cfas into my brain for the past few days... though i've been pretty slack smetimes, i must say that i really did try my best to study hard and had put in my very best effort liao... the rest... i tink i'll leave it to fate... had been pretty moody earlier on for i dunno wad reason - but when exams are nearing im always more easily annoyed than usual... sorry for the poor command of english in this entry... my brain is exploding... however, i want to thank my bunch of frens who encouraged me along this examination period, helping me in areas that i dont understand, studying wif me on skype(though almost 1/3 of the time we are chatting and drinking our tea to keep ourselves awake WAHAHA)... ok this is a whiny entry i know and its ending soon so dont worry... think i have to go continue with my mugging... gd luck to those having exams and dun tire urselves out... jia you!!! exam period ending sOOn!!! YEAH!!!

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Monday, August 21, 2006

since im getting tired... i decided to do a test... but i wun reveal my own answers here... lol... here it goes...

If everything here listed below happens at a go but you're alone, what will you do first?
1) Running Tap
2) Door bell ringing
3) Phone ringing
4) Baby crying

List your choices in number form... From what you will do 1st to the last... NOW~The things you do first = what you look at first
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1) Turn off tap = Wealth
2) Answer door = Looks
3) Answer call = Character
4) Attend to baby = Intelligence

haha... how did it go??? i know!!! u all choose number 1 first right... lol... nah im not such a bad person... hope u enjoyed urself with this test!!! :P

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Sunday, August 20, 2006

hmm... i had a nightmare yest... but i didnt watch much tv yest... was mugging inv... it felt terrible, even after so many hrs i still felt traumatised by it...

oh ya and i found out something... my face is damn fat... i mean ya la im fat thats why my face is fat but i didnt expect it to be so fat(a new tongue twister)...
i did an experiment - i tied my hair and took a photo:
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and the conclusion is my face is made up of 100% fats... and i tink i look so funny(like an ugly monster) tying my hair up which i cannot recall since when i last tied them... >.<

ok gotta go continue mugging again... counting down 6 days...

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Friday, August 18, 2006

i i i i i finally drank my bubble tea today... wahahaha... grape red tea... but stoopid me i've actually forgotten to order red milk tea instead... but im beginning to regret drinking it already... my auntie made an unexpected appearance and gives me nothing but cramps... *haiz* and when i came out of the mrt station just now, there was a lady giving brochures, as usual i will not take bcus i know they will just be wasting it... but of cus i not so rude la just walk away like that, i everytime also got smile and shake my head(see i so polite wahahahah)... this time i did the same eh then she die die also must i take her brochure - after i walk pass, i heard a sound 'aey' and some kind of weight on my bag... then i turn n look at my bag she actually foRced squeezed the brochure to me onto my bag... i tink that was kinda rude, if i didnt bother to check, i wud have been walking ard with the BRIGHT green brochure sticking 90% out of my bag... as expected, that brochure ended up into the rubbish bin... see la waste a piece of paper... treasury paper today... abit heart pain for the 15 marks yield curve qns... hope got the error carry forward... hmmp... i gotta work very very very hard for the remaining 3 papers... just bought a bottle/pail of maltesers which cost a whooping $20 bucks so expensive!!! and i thot oli 10 plus bucks... and so strange it was the oli item w/o the price tag there... >.<

oh ya and i almost knocked into sOmEoNe at the school bus-stop today... :)/:( ???

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Thursday, August 17, 2006

want to hit myself liao... was doing calculations when i kept on having careless mistakes... *slaps myself* i will faint if this happens on friday... *very touch wood* ok back to my revision... (heart pain and sad)... slp tite every1...

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Tuesday, August 15, 2006

i was having fish porridge for lunch when i saw this show:

there was this happy family of 3, the father being a doctor, the mother being a famous children books' author and they have an adorable 5yr old daughter... one day their daughter collapsed while walking after school... after many tests it was found that she had leukemia... however chemotherapy doesnt work on her at all and she needed a bone marrow transplant... both parents were devastated and sad and worn out... one day, the mother asked the father out to have a walk on the beach to san xin(sort of relax themselves a bit)... then the father received a phone call saying there was a suitable bone marrow doner from Paris and that they are arranging for her to come over... they were of course estatic... suddenly they heard shouts of help... a teenager was struggling in the waters... the father(ZJ) then jumped into the waters and tried to save him... after a huge wave hit them and them being not in sight anymore, the mother(SX) tried to go into the waters to look for him... (after a few days) SX and ZJ's colleagues were worriedly waiting at home when ZJ came back... he said he tried to save the boy but to no avail the currents were too strong, he then held on to a wooden plank until some fishermen saved him... next day in the hospital when ZJ walked pass an elderly woman cleaner, she stepped aside turned round and said 'excuse me excuse me'(not the normal excuse me if u know wad i mean)... a few days later, ZJ's colleagues were looking at the previous days' security videos from the hospital to look for something when they saw a footage of a cup of water floating towards ZJ and his hp amazingly float into his hands after dropping into the dustbin... they were scared out of their wits... and thot that the video had spoilt... afterwards they walked pass the couple when they saw the cleaner giving the couple a strange look again, and when probbed the cleaner refused to say anything... the little gal then received the bone marrow transplant and she was found to be not rejecting them... her parents were very happy and they decided to go to the beach to catch the sunset that they didnt managed to catch the other time... while ZJ was waiting for SX at the carpark 2 robbers attacked him with knives but strangely the knife suddenly flew out of the robbers hands and flew towards themselves... ZJ's colleagues were very worried abt him and decided to show him the strange video... he immediately rushed home... the reason is... on that day of the video, he was not alone in the room, his wife is the one who passed him the water and picked his hp for him... he reached home and saw his wife and was very happy, however, he cannot see his wife's reflection in the mirror... just then, his wife told him that she had just finished written a new story, a story of their daughter when she was just born till the future... the wife then realised that the husband already knew what had happened to her... yuan lai the wife didnt know how to swim so that particular day when the wife went to the sea to look for her husband, she was also hit by a huge wave and died... she was suppose to follow that angel but she requested for somemore time as her daughter was stil critically ill at that time... the angel then agreed to give her 10 days... and that day is already the 10th day meaning her time is up and she had to leave... (the angel appeared in the room) the wife then told her husband that she had already arranged for her own funeral and other matters and instructed him to give their daughter a pearl necklace that she had prepared for their daughter's wedding... the husband cried... and said that he wun let her leave him and scolded the angel... he then carried her and attempt to look for a priest for help to prolong her life... but the angel followed everywhere they went and refused to give them a chance even after being scolded by ZJ... just then a van pulled up and yuan lai is ZJ's colleagues brought their daughter there to let them meet for the last time... SX then cried and promised that she will always look out and protect them and that she wil always love them... with that, she flew to the heaven...

what do u think of this show? my fish porridge became very salty after i finished watching it... so touching and sad and the stupid scriptwriter la write such a stupid ending...happy ending bu jiu hao lor... i didnt write all the things in la cause 1.5hr show mah... but all the essence and impt points all inside le... this is really a great but sad show that touched my heart and made me so emotional... tag and tell me wad u think abt this show ok???

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i've been sneezing non-stop since saturday... and had since sneezed at least 1000 times today... omg... can anyone send me a nose plumber??? pray hard i dun fall sick during my exam period... *tolong tolong*... and i need a tissue paper sponsor... scotts will be nice... hiak hiak hiak... pray hard i wun get nightmares again tonight...

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Monday, August 14, 2006

i didnt sleep well yest... cus of my neighbour's drilling and knocking... plus my nightmare... plus my worries for the exams... the nightmare mus have been caused by a show i saw yesterday... which is full of no linkages... but it was pretty scary and worse than any horror show... it was abt a psychopath(dunno correct not) killer... hu went killing this woman... and the woman's husband dunno been killed for wad earlier in the show... and there was this statue that will always appear in front of the woman no matter where she throw or leave it... then there's one scene that really scared the hell out of me... the woman was hiding in a cupboard from the killer... out of a sudden *pong* her husband body fell on her... oh my god that part ah my heart almost came out... then next came a cockroach... which scared the wits out of her and she carnt scream... ok... thats all im typing... theres too much... plenty of other things to type but just plain lazy... its MODAY already oh no... *full of regrets*

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Friday, August 11, 2006

im gonna blog abt food today... nt exactly the kind that u r thinking abt... my mom bought some dou sha bing (dou sha biscuits) today... 30 of them and each costs 50 cents... so actually it shld be $15 rite? the stoooooopid uncle tell my mum $25 and my mum (think she too stressed out lately) really paid him $25... and she only found out abt the mistake when she told my father abt it... *(To the biscuit seller uncle) UNCLE u this dishonest seller cheat my mama money! box u ah! u better not cheat other ppl ah! if not i call police...* just now my mum opened 2 cans of longans and 1 can of pineapple... i happily took 1 bowl and to my HORROR i saw a strand of hair inside... which is so short it cannot be mine or my mum's... almost vommited... eeeeww... i crave for a cup of sour plum ice blended or pearl milk bubble tea... not forgetting my sushi ~yum yum~ im such a glutton...

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Thursday, August 10, 2006

im feeling kinda confused and guilty... dunno if i shld go or not... but i tink i will definitely feel strange and out of place if i go... but now that i've just called and tell my auntie that im not going... im feeling so guilty... and scared that she will be angry... oh oh oh im really stuck in a dilemma now.... how how... haizz... but on the other hand i missed it and feel like going... i dunno wad rubbish im sprouting... *caught in a dilemma* :(

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10:47 PM

haven updated for 2 3 4 days??? m so very slack these few days... went to my aunt's hse to celebrate national day with my extended family... we had the direct view of the fireworks and they are so awesome... but so short... i had this korean craze taking over me, totally crazy over korean stars, programmes, songs and whatever u can name... esp songs by kim jong kook, he roCks!!! but i had trouble finding his songs from his previous band group turbo... which i tink is quite long ago? their goodbye yesterday is nice... haha(a real korean actor/singer?), kim jong min, park myung soo and lee sung jin are a hilarious lot... they always make me luff my ass off in the game show... ok maybe after a few days of not blogging, my blogging sense is gone (i dont think it ever existed in the first place)... can some1 pls gif me more motivation to study hard for my exams???

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Monday, August 07, 2006

yoohoo! projects are finally over... but im still sad CUZ exams are coming!!! wahahha... well im not very happy wif my cfas presentation i tink i kinda flop my speech... i speak ok when im rehearsing myself but when im presenting, i totally freak out and suddenly forgot wad i had to say... sho sad... hope i dun fail... went out wif SHUTING(she always says i nv spell out her name) today... watched Click... it was a very nice and hilarious movie and sme parts so touching that we got teary... lol... u shld all go watch it... 5 stars!!! but but but... got some scenes quite crude la... had bravissmo(duno hw to spell) ice cream again... im addicted to the lemon flavour... had dinner at yuki yaki... so filling!!!
i really LOVE mushrooms (but it was sliced mushrooms in this pic)... their fishballs are nice too!!! as well as their char siew, bbq and black pepper meat... lalalala~ im a greedy pig...
after finishing our meal, the freako fren of mine, SHUTING played with the food la... the octopus so poor thing... lol... tink better nt show the pic of it here so disgusting... by the time we finish it was quite late liao... then actually wanted to go to dorothy perkins but closed le so went to the face shop and bought the peach yoghurt (for face one la :P)... took a lot of stupid pics on the way hme...

2 complete WIERDOS
didnt know why i squeezed my Fatty face till like that... so ugly rite... >.<

i know i know this looks kinda scaRRRRRRRy...

familiar pose??? its the pose of sme1 of sme local magazine... wahahaha... think oli van knows hu's this pose belongs to!!!
woosh~ finally a normal looking one! :P
too many to post all of them here... some of them are on friendster... then at one point there was this lady sitting opposite us and was practically luffing at us seeing our silly antics... reached my hme bus stop at ard 11.30pm... had to walk in and was practically quite scared cus i oli had my music to accompany me... so late liao so nv ask my father to come out wait for me... im mad la then keep on scaring myself by imagining all the stOOpid and sCary stuffs... i tink im walking at a speed of 250km/hr... lol... ok... mayb shall slack for 1 mre day b4 starting revision on tues!!! im jus plain lazy wahahha...

im so addicted to dangyunhaji and kim jong min and tim!!! :)

yawn~back to watching dangyunhaji...

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Friday, August 04, 2006

am feeling sad, disappointed and a hint of angryness??? maybe not just a hint... whole lorryload of it... am feeling so sick... the flu got worse... but i switch on the air-con anyway... my whole nose is practically stuck and running... my nose loses its functions... i carn breathe through it and i had to clear my nose every 5 mins... the ending result is that my nose if raw and pain from all that friction... wanted to eat the panadol for cold when the lemon hot drink sachet caught my eye... wanted to try if its nice, lemon flavour eh (i must be mad - nice so what everyday drink meh???)... but must use hot water and if i want can sweeten and see me sure know i want it to be sweetened... so after debating with myself for 5 mins i decided to just take the tablets... ~diao~ very tired and have a bad headache... but still haf to complete my presentation speech and PLB tutorial -shucks-... KIM JONG MIN is cute... lol... the song Together by group koyote (KJM is in it :P) is very nice!!! Go listen/see it in Youtube if u are free!!! hahah i dwnloaded it into my ipod liao... gonna upload as my ringtone next... haha im mad... too much time... ok have enough of a break... gotta go back to my work and had an early??? night liao... if nt canot present properly tml... and sure gonna be very tired tml...

^SIGH sadded, tomorrow or rather today is the last day liaozzz but so what? i have my kim jong kook, kim jong min, joo ji hoon, tim and so on!!! wahahahah!!! dun bother about me^

***** VERY addicted to XMAN especially dangyunhaji*****

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Wednesday, August 02, 2006

you all want to hear gd news or bad news first? anyway im asking a stooopid question when actually the news concerns me... wahahah... think i prefer to tok about the bad stuff first... hmm seriously theres nth much nono shld be theres too much for me to type it out here but i just want to say that somethings or people are just not wad they seem... disappointed, angry and sad... ok hu knows others may feel the same way about me too... but i tried my best already... ~tolong tolong tolong friday 4pm faster come!!!~ carn wait for the whole sem to finish and have my nice holiday...

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the gd news... yiPpEe!!! i finally passed my final theory at my 3rd attempt and i didnt even studied for it this time round... i flunked twice for my e-trial test... but i was reali happy that the questions were much easier then the 2 previous times... i didnt expect to pass and i was practically grinning from ear to ear when the 'PASSED' appeared on my screen... of cus i applied for my pdl and yahoo im gonna have an intense period of driving lessons after my exams!!! haha finally cleared that stupid hurdle... maybe u all might find it a no big deal but ~ it is for me... ok haha im in no clear mind now...

hehehehe im mad~ this is my pdl liscence (forget how to spell)... of cus mus omit special information... lol...
actually we didnt haf to print this out... their database will capture everything... but i bo liao and itchy fingers... lol... thats why...
*PS: im not hao-lianing... :P
thats all for today... hmm hope that everything goes on smoothly...

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