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Monday, July 31, 2006

well well... totally slacking from studying MFS... wonder how am i going to complete the paper tml... *crosses my fingers* it suddenly hit on me that i haf FT on wednesday! and i still haven studied for it! and i still haf to complete treasury tutorial and plb... oh shucks the never-ending tasks... friday friday come quickly... i need a break b4 i start on my revision for my exams... wich is jus 2 wks away??? haizz...
*****who invented all these things???*****

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Sunday, July 30, 2006

im so angry!!! 1) my sliding door lock is spoilt = cannot close the sliding door properly and my maid didnt even bother to let me know about it and i still happily on the air con which means im wasting electricity... 2) it was actually arranged that my uncle is to bring my grandpa to the doc's yest for his swollen leg and i actually woke up at 10 to wait for my uncle to come and after a long wait i thot he had forgotten about it or he is too busy and so i didnt dare call to disturb him... so in the evening i told my auntie about it and she said see how's my grandpa's leg and she will bring him to the doc's today... and this morning my aunt gave me a call and told me that my uncle had already brought my grandpa to the doc's... and my maid actually didnt tell me!!! and when i ask her why she didnt tell me, she said she told the other maid!!! WTF tell the other maid for wad??? then theres medicine to be applied too... WTH im so bloody angry! i felt so guilty that i sort of maligned my uncle... even after saying sorry and he saying its no big deal i still feel so guilty and bad that i jumped to conclusions... and there are so many other things that they did/ happened and they just kept to themselves and never tell me... arrrrrgggghhhh!!!!! so bloody no mood to study now! just feeling real very gulity now!!! i thought i will feel a litle better with blogging it out but no it just makes me feel worse... im not throwing a tantrum but haiya also duno hw to say...
PS: For those of u who wants to call the police and say that i abuse/ are mean to my maids, put urself in my shoes first... imagine if they give the medicine wrongly to my grandpa...

!!!!!!!!!!FRUSTRATED!!!!!!!!!!!!

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Saturday, July 29, 2006

its some time ago since i last blogged... well i've been through a lot the whole of these past few weeks in which i've had a lot of painful experiences... i wud rather nt tok abt them here and i've already forgotten some... finally the cfas project is getting some headway nono, i will not say headway, rather, its gonna be completed soon... ^kudos!!!^ and im so glad that our presentation is being postponed to next fri... which gives us the whole weekend to study MFS test which we are worried that we will not be able to study for if we had to present on mon... went to IKEA wif wen and van after cfas proj on fri... to buy the boxes for the envelopes and stationeries... didnt managed to get wad jere had in mind... and the remaining ones are nice, but alas too expensive... and we already spent like so much on the whole sem's projects... went to the cafe and da bao chicky wings while van da bao fish n chips... smells so nice!!! lol... was quite angry when i went down this afternoon... one of the maids is sleeping in the room!!! WTH... its 12 in the afternoon and i asked if she is sick or if she didnt slp the previous night she said no... then the other one is just sitting in the kitchen... i asked if they dun haf anything to do they say they completed everything already... i was thinking so many things in the house - they say nothing??? i wanted to on the CCTV to check and see if they realli did but i duno hw to operate... its not that im being mean and force them to do work, then my parents pay them to come here slp and to sit in the kitchen??? haizz... and its like they went to bed at 10pm... and also they just on the radio and left it on even when no1 is listening WTF and that sort of also explains why the electricity bill in my hse is so high... spoilt my mood in the afternoon...

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i've finally finished goong!!! i like the ending but like smething is amiss??? carn wait for the season 2 to come... faster faster!!! wahahahahha... went out to dinner with my aunties, uncle and cousin... its my auntie's maid bdae today... we went to have jap/international buffet at the New Park Hotel... its realli nice... and it costs $30++ per person... i will be back there again... lol...

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my parents and bro left for thailand on thurs and will be back only on monday... haizz the whole hse is so quiet and empty... and it feels strange that on a sat night my hse is filled with oli 5 people when it usually has about 20? missed quarrelling wif my bro lol... missed my parents too... im slacking too much to be studying hard for my MFS... im worried but just dun want to look at it... but i guess i will after this... lol... studying clock is ticking away... had an impulse to go KBox tml... almost went today but nv... oh ya... and i went to xiaxue's blog where she shared a pink theme... its very nice and sweet and im thinking of dwnloading it... i've changed my cursor!!! so nice... ok la oli i tink its nice... its a pink heart with my other small coloured hearts floating upwards... actually wanted to post some pics... but too lan duo le haha... ok i've crap for far too long... time to hit on my MFS liao... slp tite everyone... :) (and i hate the person who invented IAP)

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Tuesday, July 25, 2006

nothing much to blog about... everyone's just feeling so sad and moody... the moods' just not right nowadays... buaizz... off to watch goong b4 starting on cfas project...
(this was blogged in school in the morning)

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hmmm... i want to cry out... maybe its post pms... haiz... and i feel so heart pain... my grandpa sprained his leg and just now i saw it, it was really swollen... even bigger than my foot... my dad's gonna bring him to a doctor tomorrow... hope a jab can make the swell disappear... actually i have lots of things to blog about... but but but... all of a sudden i just dunno how to start... so i've decided to not blog any of them... what rubbish... think i better go immerse in goong to make myself happier... *i missed bubble tea can anyone give me a cup of sourplum iceblended???*
(this was blogged at around 9 plus pm)

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ok this time i really want to cry le... my hands itchy and now i've read things that i dont think i would want to read or see... boohoo boohoo boohoo... :'(

11:42pm

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Sunday, July 23, 2006

actually i dun intend to blog today... but there are somethings that just make me bloody terribly pissed off!!! im so angry that my blood is 100 degrees celcius and boiling hot!!! omg!!! i ---- - --
---- ----- -- ----- --- -- ------------- --- ---- --???!!! thats all - im very angry!!! hmmp!!!

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Saturday, July 22, 2006

i have totally no mood for anything... the impending projects to be handed up, the up coming tests and exams, the counting down to the end of this semester and some others are all driving me up the wall... never felt this unhappy before... haizzz... maybe i should just go to sakae sushi and stuff myself up till i explode... or i can go to kbox myself and sing till my lungs break or my ears go deaf... can something or somebody cheer me up??? rite now it will be goong and goong only... shall go and cheer myself up now... i want to go on a holiday!!! september will you pls hurry and come??? and let me leave this sadded place...

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Thursday, July 20, 2006

darn... i have tummyache again... all thanks to my auntie... sorry if i happen to snap at u or dun even bother to answer or tok to you at all... -not in a good mood-...

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Wednesday, July 19, 2006

what is life??? and why are our days always filled with so many ups and downs??? why carn everyone just be happy everyday??? isnt it better then??? im upset by so many UNHAPPY happenings that are happening around me... haizzz... sadded... i've read a newspaper report before that people usually only blog about unhappy stuffs... which i think is very true, esp for me... but i did blog about happy stuffs too... ok up till now i really dont know what exactly im blogging about... totally no link... nothing to blog on anymore haizzz... back to my hibernation mode...

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Tuesday, July 18, 2006

UR PRESSIE!!! ---> this is my present for the miss 700th reader of my blog... i kept my promise ok... wahahah... yest had an ultra stomachache... but all thanks to the super miracle medicine that i took, im ok already!!! yeah!!! heheheh... hmm... today im also not sure whether im happy or sad... everyday nowadays are pretty monotonous to me... im counting down... 14 days? maybe even lesser than that... i know sme1else is oso counting down with me... u know hu u r wahahah... ok nth much to blog abt oso... haizz... gotta go do my project le! n i've oso updated le vanny... u faster go update urs oso ba... annyong... bususudiya??? kazaar!

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Sunday, July 16, 2006

i am not just having a normal sad swing... im having a very real terrible abnormally sad swing or should i say swings... after hearing somethings yesterday, my heart felt as if it is being soaked in a pail of lemon juice... very xin suan eh... im not exaggerating - its really what im feeling... i envy them too and hw nice if we are in that situation too... haizz wad can i say??? it just takes 2 hands to clap... and we just had to make do with it... WE CAN! :) then after hearing that, i saw something else too... haizz... the underwater sea creature... haizz... i oso duno... and i dun want to go think abt it anymore... i just want to study hard and pass this sem... and go enjoy myself on my holiday... currently watching goong now... my cussie = cousin send me the whole 24 episodes and the OST too... very nice and im in love and addicted to it... OST i haven really hear all of them yet but Perhaps Love is nice... currently on episode 5... ok i guess i also better go do some research for PLB... mus gambatte liao... after reading this entry i guess everyone's head will pop out 'bususuDInya?' i guess only i understand what this whole entry is about... ~ VERY NOT looking forward and backward to school tomorrow ~ :'(

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Friday, July 14, 2006

sob sob... i got a pimple on my nose!!! pimple go away dun come again another day... haizzz i dun want to have a change of class... it will be so sad to be like that and why must they make it this way for the already last sem??? pray hard and crosses my fingers that we will be able to be in the same tutorial group... canot imagine having to change class all over again and having to switch project mates and so on... think so much oso no use... see wad is being briefed to us on monday ba... the mrt... is a very interesting place/transport... but i do hate those ppl hu gives u the whole lookover whenever u walked into the carriage? i mean i know its a natural reaction to look at whoever comes in but to stare and to look at ppl from top to toe is downright RUDE... i dunno others but i do have such experiences from time to time... they look at me as if im a 500kg gal who is stuffing a hamburger down my throat... excuse me so what if im fat and overweight???!!! at least im not as RUDE as u starers ok!!! its very uncomfortable to have ppl staring at u like that... i get so pissed off sometimes because they think they are the high and mighty princessess and its tian jin di yi that they turn their noses up at other ppl... so thats y sometimes i realli prefer to take the 2 hr or so plus minus bus ride home from school... more privacy i feel... then STOP staring at my legs can... i know its fat like a zhu jiao and got insect bites on it but pls la u r not flawless oso lor... arrrgghhh!!! so irritated by this ppl eh... mayb u all think i sensitive but realli sometimes these kind of things very obvious de leh... ok enuf of this... time for some nice moments in the mrt... today in the carriage there was this very cute little toddler... she sat next to the glass pane there - the place where ppl always love to lean on against... she was very cute... then she of cus like all children climb up and down the seat then she attempted to tickle the lady leaning against the glass pane... really very cute!!! i smile at her then she smiled back at me shes very sweet... then she wanted to walk towards me i guess (i was sitting oppo her) but her mum pulled her back i got an urge to reach out n hold her and play with her wahahah... i tink her mum will freak out... :P but they got off very soon after... next is a little boy and his mum sitting there and he was also very cute la wanted to tickle the lady leaning there again (wonder y)... but after that a guy stood there and the little boy tickled his buttocks!!! i almost wanted to luff out loud but cannot la its so rude... but its like reali funny so i bo bian had to stiffle my luff by coughing... then try to meddle with my purse... hahaha... so cute arent they??? and ps: in case u r wondering y am i staring at ppl when i just finished condemning those who did so, i want to make it clear that i did not stare in the RUDE way that those ppl did... ok enough said... time to do my work again... haf a nice weekend everyone... exams are coming soon and so are the holidays and duno whether to be sad or happy... ~but im still sad~ :(

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Thursday, July 13, 2006

woohoo~ felt refreshed and recharged after 12 hours of sleep! finally feeling like a human - not a zombie... so i've told practically everyone that im gonna sleep till 5pm today but no ok i slept till only 10.50am... wahahaha... this entry's gonna be long so why dun u take a minute to go get a cup of cuppa and some cookies??? -1 minute - ok times up... lol... actually it was all yesterday's events and that i wanted to blog it yesterday but once again my falling asleep syndrome came and = i fall asleep before i can even start blogging... so after lecture yesterday i went to meet up with my mum at her office before my father came to fetch us to the National Skin Centre... go there for what? of course got skin problem lahzz... haha the irritating rashes on my legs dun seem to be able to recover and over a prolonged period already... when i was registering at the counter, i was shocked ok la not exactly shocked rather alarmed to see a notice that goes something like this: NSC is a place for training school for doctors and tat they may be present in the consultations with the supervision of the other experienced doctors and that if u dun want u can request for them to be out of the room... something like that la carn remember the whole passage... i was thinking ~ eh like a bit no privacy hor... but then of cus u can request for them to be out but its like a bit bad la ppl go there to learn and practice then if all the patients are like that then they sure fail their internship already... and so the spots on my legs are not rashes they are insect bites terrible isnt it... i all along thought that they are rashes after what my GP told me but the doctor that i saw yesterday was senior consultatant... so... heh heh... believe hu? of cus senior consultant... paid an exhorbitant price for it ok... she asked me to spray insect repellant on myself when im at home >.< then ask me to wear more long pants but i was thinking eh... not cutting off the ventilation meh??? then at hme wear pants meh? then she told me that the scars will take a long long time to heal eh... at first say 3 mths then say 6 mths oh no!!! haizz so sadded... (at this point im so irritated because i've already finished typing the super long entry and only after i published then i know that it shows only half of it) after that, my mum and i went to PP to change my current very expensive hp plan as well as transferring the plan to my name... the whole process is too long and troublesome to type out so = im not typing it out... hahah then the m1 serivce officer asked me why we want to change network which reminds me of michelle mentioning about the 'retention officer' during her MFS presentation... when on the way home in the cab, the cab driver keep on looking at us through the rear-view mirror... must be listening to us gossip - no la my mum and i so refine where got got gossip we discuss only ok... uncle, can u pls concentrate on driving on the road??? tsk tsk haha... my house is full of strange guys today... they came to install the CCTV... cus cus... of my maid... haizz too long a story to be typed out... when i free and have the mood then type ba... :P speaking of which, im reminded of what my mum told me... my mum's gd fren auntie k is gg on a trip to thailand then on the day b4 she is gg, my mum smsed her saying meet her there which lead to auntie k going round telling the other gd frens of theirs that my mum is gg to thailand too... after she know that it was a joke, she was so angry that she smsed my mum this: *** (my mums full name) as on ***(date) *** (time), you are no longer my fren and i want to 1 knife 72 cuts (yi dao 72 duan) with u... erm excuse me auntie??? u in kindergarten ah... then its like my mum smsed her to ask her hw was her trip she didnt reply at all... pretty small air (xiao qi) ah... i mean which person never play a joke on their frens b4??? say me for example, got so many other people played pranks on me b4 like MS SHOOT and MS VAN (haha they gonna kill me)... auntie k see open (kan kai) a bit la... 40 plus of age and after 20 years of friendship... haha carn remember what else i typed... anyway this is entry is long enough and im thirsty... going to have my yummy strawberries now... yippie!!! :) ~ not looking forward to school tomorrow ~

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Tuesday, July 11, 2006

I DUN LIKE/LOVE/ XI HUAN --- AND DIXIE POON STOP LUFFING AT HIM WHENEVER YOU SEE HIM! its so obvious la... zhe ci zhen de bei ni hai si le... and not only one time ok... i've decided - not to walk near dixie poon from now onwards... hmmp!!! and im still sad... cause of the news... the bad bad bad news... haizzz... what to do??? what to do??? what to do???

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Monday, July 10, 2006

im a living zombie... im so dead tired and worn out... just reached home and finished my dinner... and i've been dealt with some blow... blow??? maybe u find it exaggerating... but... everyone have different opinions on different things... he's going... and thats all im saying... nothing much to comment on also... im mad... im just looking forward towards thursday where i can catch up on all the sleep that i've been missing... very sad down low unhappy tired exhausted... :'( just feeling so sick and tired of everything thats happening right now... why carn just something good happen?

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Sunday, July 09, 2006

I HATE PROJECTS!

HEY _______,

IF YOU CARN FINISH THE WORK U R SUPPOSED TO DO, DONT BE SO STUBBORN AND REFUSE TO PASS ON THE WORK TO OTHERS WHO WANTS TO DO IT! AND WHEN WE ACTUALLY WANTED TO FINISH IT ON THURSDAY AND NOW IT IS BEING DRAGGED ALL THE WAY TO SUN AND THAT THE DATELINE IS TOMORROW! AND NOW U R GIVING ALL SORTS OF EXCUSES - GO HERE AND THERE WHEN U SAY U R ACTUALLY FREE THESE FEW DAYS!!! STOP LYING OK???

YOURS SINCERELY,
FUMING WITH ANGER

(borrowing the copyright from vanessa)

ok so im really angry... i know im not perfect too and that the things i do may not please others too or may offend them... but its really ridiculous that this has already happened for NOT only one time... i got nothing much to say... i only want to finish investment now...

*WEDNESDAY CAN YOU PLEASE COME ASAP*

:( :( :( :'( :'( :'(

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Saturday, July 08, 2006

i have another big problem... it seems that i have a lot of problems hOr... lol... i always fall asleep at around 9 to 10 plus pm to oli wake up at 5 to 6 plus am... which is what i am doing now... its 6.26am... i have lots of missed calls and messages *sorry*... haf to think of a way to turn my sleeping timetable around... im so sad!!! i never watch the 2nd half of the 9pm show ending!!! sob sob... ok see up to this point i forgot what i want to type again... or maybe theres nothing for me to type also... yeah!!! Goong!!! go find u later k!!! in suntec!!! in the Blue Max shop... finally arrived after such a long wait... made me and van search for u for so long... conclusion = im MAD im toking to a VCD show series... SOMEBODY HELP ME!!! ah yes... i remembered what i wanted to type liao... im having very strong (measured 100 on the Ritcher scale) mood swings which i really had no idea why... chu bu jian yan i tink its.................................................................. yup ok lemme go do my stuffs le... shant crap anymore... u guys must be damn bored to see me blog so many times per day... bwahahahahaha... but if u are reading this sentence, it means u like what i type rite??? oh my oh my spouting/sprouting rubbish again... ignore that ok??? im having mood swings again = :) :P :X :D :( :'(

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Friday, July 07, 2006

i've got a major problem! i always had a lot of things which i wanted to blog about but by the time im typing, i forgot almost 95% of it... is this wad they call STM??? yes i think so... and another thing i duno why i just love to put punctuations in 3's strange ah??? nah they say geniuses have strange habits *ehem* lol... i had a very eventful morning today... i actually mistook bus 135 for bus 154!!! oh my god and to think i thought the bus changed route... but i really thot i saw 154... then i asked the lady next to me if the bus is bus 154 (i felt stupid asking that) she said no and i immediately jump off the bus... i dont even know where in Singapore i was only that i was at block 334 or 344 serangoon ave 3... it was already 8.30 plus at that time and there were no cabs in sight... i tink i boarded one at only 8.45 with $16 worth of notes and $3 dollars worth of coins = $19... was so afraid that i had not enuf money to pay for the fare... had to pay the $1 extra surcharge + $3 ERP... so expensive!!! wasted all that amount for nothing!!! hmmp!!! learnt my lesson... next time must open my eyes BIG BIG and look at the buses le... heh heh... today is james's bdae the 5 of us went for ramen (yummy yummy) and after which james van and i went to suntec to shop and have ben and jerry's ice cream!!! saw a bag which i wanted to buy in royal sporting house but left last display piece and got a 'line' on it... then saw it again in The Wallet Shop but that one no discount but guess i prefer that ba... in the end went hme empty handed... but im glad cus now im thinking if i should buy the nike one instead... oh im in a dilemma!!! duno which one to buy!!! lol... ok do 9pm show liao last episode, and even though i know that its quite a stupid ending, shall watch it too... lol... ciaozzz!!! kbox here i come!!! :)

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Thursday, July 06, 2006

felt so full of satisfaction after completing question 5... while waiting for raazi's question 3, decided to come in n blog... abt yesterday... lol... actually wanted to copy and paste van's blog so i dun haf to type but she tell me got copyright lor!!! haha... hmmp!!! okok... so yesterday i had a penalty of 5 awful sushi - except for the ebi one... woa i tell u the green beads sushi is terrible... i forgot what the name is liao... its like cough mixture and duno taste like what medicine... almost gag on it... the jellyfish*ehem* one tasted quite nice...
the salmon and avocado one taste soso oli know that its slimy... ok so im a sushi junkie who doesnt touches the raw food... van and dix had 2 each... i oso had to do a lot of true(truths) which included 1 which i had to say out my password... and dix actually reali changed my profile - so if u receive strange things which is not my style, dont be alarmed... its not me... haha... let you see the photos... ok maybe not... i shall leave it to the last, shall continue typing first lol... shant display me and my cutie friends' faces first... then van was eating the mochi ice cream when someone's name was mentioned and oops... out came the mochi from van's mouth... see how agitated she was? lol... actually oso nth much to tok abt already...
*ta-da*

haha... van's caption was: we are taller than superman!!!
and did you see how spread out our legs are??? oh my!!! and we were wearing skirt!!! :P

being the cutie faces we are... we took loads of photos...

hahaha theres one more pic which i wanted to upload which i will when i get home... mr dixie poon poured so much soya sauce(issit called like that?) out... which is like almost half of the saucer... haha... and ya! i remembered something, after seperating from them and meeting my friend, van gave me a call and told me that dixon was in the loo for like 30mins and haven come out... scare the hell out of me ok... i reali thot he fainted inside... then i tried calling him he also never pick up the call... lol... after that then they told me this was a prank? lol... ok... im going home soon...
*awaiting for Goong OSt and VCDs* whos gonna buy it for me??? :)

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heh heh... had lunch cum dinner at Sakae with van and dixon... its fun... at first we estimated how many plates we could eat... then we played true or dare... i must say im truely unlucky to be the one who 'kenna' the most times... and the whole time at Sakae was so fun and funny and we laughed so loud that i tink ppl tink that we R mad... the whole thing is too long for me type it out... hahaha... so funny... hehehehehe... :)

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Wednesday, July 05, 2006

i haf a conclusion: i HATE investment and everything about it... projects, work, tutorials and whatever about it... it gives me headache to think about it and my head is going bald from constantly scratching it - because im stuck at question 5... its going to be 3am now and im still stuck at it and i haven started doing my treasury tutorial think i really dunid to sleep tonight... *haiz haiz haiz* :'(

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Tuesday, July 04, 2006

Mr Taxi driver of 2409 is so terrible there was a hump right ahead but he never slowed down... he drove so fast that i got a bump and im just lucky that i didnt hit my head against the roof of the cab... stupid! so just plain rude! ok so im not in a good mood today... shant blog anymore... :'(

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9:37 PM

today is a BAD BAD BAD BAD BAD BAD BAD BAD BAD day!!! its also a terrible day!!! ok and also i had a plate of chicken rice which i am feeling so guilty about... tats all i have no mood to blog any furthur!!!

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Monday, July 03, 2006

heh heh heh... before i embark on my projects again lemme blog on the happennings around me... hey! i saw the selfish auntie on bus 154 again! and she did the same thing! so angry! hmmp! haha shant give myself more wrinkles just because of her...
ok lemme tell u the joke of the day... 'once upon a time, there was this gal who went to her fren's hse to do projects... they got hungry and decided to have bei bei mian (cup noodles)... the gal requested for a 'nissan'(nissin) brand of tom yam flavour cup noodles...' end of story, very funny hor wahahaahahahhaahahahah... well, felt that things arent going smoothly for my class and that there are complications here and there... haiz... :( y like that... yeah i passed all my 4 tests and am especially very very very very very very happy for the PLB paper!!! i got 43 out of 50 for it... not i hao lian but its that i studied very hard for it... im glad that my efforts paid off! :)
oh ya then today we were toking rubbish abt jellyfish then i was wondering if he did hear? cus we were quite high n agitated and like after that i was thinking that he was sitting quite near us also eh maybe he heard eveything... but hu CARES~ lol... ok i actually dozed off just now... i shall continue wif my projects! will be back with more news (of jellyfish?) hahah lol...

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Saturday, July 01, 2006

ok so i've had lots of things to blog about since this morning... but i've forgotten it all and im semi-asleep and too tired to type it out... so theres nth for today ~ goodnight it will be a busy week next week... *YAWN*

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